* current inspiration *
When I look at the sky,
I see all the stars twinkling.
There are like the people of this planet,
All emitting different types of light.
I want to stand out in that crowd,
And shine brighter than everyone else.
I close my eyes and swear,
I entrust my dream to a shooting star.

- closing song for Naruto Shippuden.

* think_orange *
likes the colour orange and eating apples.
dislikes malicious house lizards and goldfishes that stare.
wishes to meet a unicorn, make friends with the sun, and grow roots.

* link *
crackersnclaws
The Hlysnaner
itr
disjecta membra
f.r.a.g.m.e.n.t.e.d.m.e.m.o.r.i.e.s

* archives *
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* credits *
design | LyLe
image | kasy
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macromedia dreamweaver mx
adobe photoshop cs2

* Thursday, August 31, 2006 *
Name 3 schools you went to
SCGS, SAJC, ANU

Name 3 things in your purse/wallet
Coins that are falling out of the tear in my wallet.
Student card, which is my key to my hall, my lift.. important when you stay on the 8th floor.
A card which says: "let go and let God" and has super old neo prints on the back (JC class, church friend, my youger brother when he was cute and young.) Somehow I can never throw it out.

Name 3 things you like to wear
Jeans, T-shirts, shorts.

Name 3 things you always do when you are stressed up
scream randomly (when no one's around, you know.. just little brusts of argh! and thumping on the desk). sleep. cry (this is super stressed level, mind).

Name 3 fav songs right now
now? erm.. you must know that Im trying to find songs for my depression/anxiety presentation.. so.. 1) Superman (It's not easy), 2) Jaded, 3) Six feet from the edge.

Name 3 favourite persons in life (excluding family)
ah. hee. ^^

Name 3 places you go on a daily basis
I don't go out on the daily basis. I would like to say school, but that's not everyday. ah.. tough. the toilet... the fridge.. the bed?

Name 3 things you like to do
walking. just walking in the green park and looking at the sky. I forget how nice the sky can be at times.
laughing.
drinking lemon, honey and ginger tea.

Name 3 person of the opposite sex that you hold hands before
Can I cheat? Dad, my older brother, my younger brother. hahaha..

Name three favourite fruits
Mango, apple, peach

Name 3 things you are addicted to
love, the sound of a voice, hugs.

Name 3 favourite hobbies
movies? anime? tea-drinking? I haven't knitted since my first piece (a scarf). reading?

Name 3 career choices
clinical psychologist, kindergarden teacher/event co-ordinator, interior design.

Name 3 goals in 2006
Thesis: get it done! get it done.. hopefully that 5 week extension comes through..
Honours: 1st class! 2nd class upper! Dear God, I need it or I'm stuffed. I'll hit a dead end in psych.
To keep in touch with friends. I can't say I'm doing too well. but it's better than before I think.

Name 3 plans for tomorrow
Class, Readings, Thesis work/open up and scan more of those surveys if I have to. Yup, sums up my life now.

Name 3 things that scare you
loss, meaningless, anger.

Name 3 of your essential needs
(besides the really basic: water air food sleep)
love. (Oliver Twist soundtrack in the background.. "Where is love?
understanding.
respect.

Name three things you are wearing right now
Purple long sleve, V-neck shirt. White shorts. erm... a butterfly hairclip.

Name 3 unforgettable events still in your mind
being dumped. "I'm tired" what? hey?
friend finding out today that I forgot a mutal friend's name and being "blackmailed' ("ahahaha.. I'm telling him..." "U know this isn't as bad a FORGETTING A PERSON'S NAME) My first (?) nightmare. Involves volcanos, and my family and I running.

Name 3 of your fav bands or musical artistes
The All-American Rejects. Tegan and Sara. 宇多田ヒカル (erm.. I'm acutally not too sure what the last one is called).

Name 3 things essential in relationship
(relationships in general)
love, work, commitment.

Name 3 things you want to do before you leave this world
I don't know now.. I'm thinking/in a process of change. I still want to grow old, live a happy life, and have kids. but what happens in between.. hmm..

Name 3 wines
Red, White, Bad.

Random questions
lied to the person you love most?
yes.

bluff a person that you dont like/love him/her when you do?
mmm.. yes? as in I try not to show that I love him deeply? I want to say:"I love you so much, please be mine forever" but it ended up as: "I like you!" hahaha..

YES or NO questions
Violated the law?
no.

Been in jail?
no. aren't these questions too personal for a 'show and tell' session?

Trapped in a room with only a opposite sex around?
yes. trapped.

Love someone with your whole heart?
Yes. I think. How do you say it.. When you know a person doesn't love you as much as you love them.. you hold a part of yourself back.. your love is complete and deep but laced with forebiding, and sadness. so when the relationship ends... mmm.
The whole heart shatters, but the pieces don't fall apart. They don't get lost in the alternate world of darkness and madness. You cry, and then you mend. It will never be the same pure, innocent heart, all pristine and shiny, but it will be whole again. And one day, the weathered heart will find an admirer who knows its true worth, who loves the whole, who wants it all. Then two once broken hearts will become a circle of infinite love.

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ahahaha.. deviated into narrative form again. ^^ guess what? my tap works! (one month, 3 compliants later).



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* Friday, August 25, 2006 *

1000 surveys back. Thursday we got 500 in the mail, another 500 today. Ripping open the letters, cutting off their back pages (their contact details can’t be with their questionnaire answers to ensure everyone remains anonymous), scanning every single question for weird answers and making a decision what the participant Really Meant, isn’t tough work, but it sure is tiring. Tiring on the eyes.

Most of the people are ‘normal’, or as Alicia said: ’boring’. But even more interesting are those with unusual results. There was one with Autism who had his mom help him reply; many who are concerned about their shape/weight, but few who smoke (strange hey?); some clinically diagnosed with depression, bipolar disorder… many happy pregnant women. The ones that made me smile were the one with stuff like: ”Good luck”, “I’m so blessed in my life.”, written on the comments section.

Have to be quicker. Have to send everything to the data entry people ASAP. Have to make time to write-up my thesis introduction. Have to work my weekend away.

Fire @ BOZO. “A professor set a monkey on fire.” One part of the uni was teeming with police officers all drinking hot coffee around their cars. Some professor blew something up at the biology building, no one was hurt, except for one burnt monkey.

Just last year the chemistry building blew up too. Some chemicals in the ‘Dangerous Substances’ room somehow managed to mix themselves together and cause an explosive reaction. No one was hurt, but ‘cos the sprinkler came on… a lot of ppl lost their research data. My friend had to graduate one semester later.



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* Wednesday, August 23, 2006 *
If I can't express myself, the words of old shall support my mind.

Just some random quotes that describe my present state of affairs.

p/s: I'm not really procastinating. I'm trying to find happy uplifting quotes to balance out my upcoming presentation on depression and anxiety. Really! hahaha.. alright.. I'm deviating a bit...


Anais Nin:

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.

James D. Bryden:

Love does not die easily. It is a living thing. It thrives in the face of all of life's hazards, save one -- neglect.

Goethe:

To be loved for what one is, is the greatest exception. The great majority love in others only what they lend him, their own selves, their version of him.

Oscar Hammerstein, II:

Do you love me because I'm beautiful,
or am I am beautiful because you love me?

Pearl Bailey:

What the world really needs is more love and less paperwork. (yes! yes! no thesis... just love! professor... give me a first class honours... out of love...)


Rose Walker

Have you even been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...

You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

in Sandman: The Kindly Ones by Neil Gaiman

Albert Schweitzer:

Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory.

Danilo Dolci:

It's important to know that words don't move mountains. Work, exacting work moves mountains.

Lane Kirkland:

If hard work were such a wonderful thing, surely the rich would have kept it all to themselves.

Thomas Alva Edison:

Genius is one percent inspiration and ninety-nine percent perspiration.(have I told you? a girl in my class has finished her thesis already... super genius or super hardworking? 2 and a half months ahead of schedule.. the rest of us are stressed...)


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Some other quotes that opened my eyes. They're not a reflection of my life, but so beautiful I wanted to record them down. So wise. Some day I'll write a profound truth for all to remember. Some day it'll be my name alongside some quote.


Bertrand Russell:

Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of [humankind].

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of [people].
I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life; I found it worth living.

adapted
Charles Augustin Sainte-Beuve:

Tell me who admires and loves you,
And I will tell you who you are.

Houssaye:

Tell me whom you love and I will tell you who you are. (suspiciously similar.. who said what first?)

Jonathan Swift:

We have just enough religion to make us hate, but not enough to make us love one another.

Mary Oliver:

To live in this world you must be able to do three things: to love what is mortal; to hold it against your bones knowing your own life depends on it; and, when the time comes to let it go, to let it go. Blackwater Woods

Sir Arthur Pinero:

Those who love deeply never grow old; they may die of old age, but they die young.

Mark Twain:

The secret source of humour itself is not joy, but sorrow. There is no humour in heaven.



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* Wednesday, August 16, 2006 *
Miami Vice SUCKS! Don't watch it! stupid producer/director... wasted 134 mins of my life. Give it back to me... *tears* If it wasn't socially unacceptable, I would have waved my fits at the screen in frustration at the stupid plot (if you can call it that), the jerky shots, and the lousy hairstyles. And screamed. At one point I had to get up and take a long tour of the toilet to get all the tension out. I was like a pressure-cooker - any longer, I swear I would have let out a long shrill sound that starts at the of the throat and builds up into scream that rivals the greatest volcanic eruptions known on earth.

The movie may have been based on a 1980s film, but why in the world must I sit through a grainy, low-quality picture? Why in the world must I hear crap 80s music? I'm so glad I was too young to remember the 80s. The music sucks, the man all have greasy, dirty hair, and moustaches (hy, li-ray.. you know how I hate that). And the man all seem to have a problem with articulation. I couldn't hear a word, and I know for sure I wasn't the only one.

I saw a couple of people walk out of the theatre. I wanted to that so badly... but my friends were still hanging around. I guess those who stayed thought the movie would make sense anytime soon.. it'll end soon..

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argh. I was reading some reviews on the movie.. the very thing that some of them liked was the very thing I hated.

"Routine in some respects, but in others, it delivers everything expected of a summer blockbuster. And it's gorgeous."
Click for Full Review

-- Boo Allen
DENTON RECORD CHRONICLE (TX)
Roughly translated, he meant:" The movie was bad, bad, and bad. The only good parts were the gun scenes were you finally see the plot move faster than a snail, the jerky camera shots make aesthetic sense, and you actually get to hear something clearly."

"Even though you can't figure out what anyone is saying, the story is so straightforward and mindless that you gradually figure out what's going on, and the style is so fluid -- and the Caribbean visuals so evocative -- that you're carried right along."
haha.. precisely, the story is so MINDLESS. The job of the director is to tell a story, everything else is secondary. I'll rather watch a documentary.


The only honest people with sense were those who wrote the following:

5/10 "Has a lot to look at but little to actually watch. The plot is a standard 'cops go undercover to expose drug ring' story, and the characters have no personalities."
Click for Full Review

-- Jeffrey Chen
REELTALK MOVIE REVIEWS
2/4 "Just stalling as it desperately tries to string together the length of three commercial-free episodes that would have been cancelled by the first interruption of #102."
Click for Full Review

-- Erik Childress
EFILMCRITIC.COM



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* Monday, August 14, 2006 *
You Are a Chihuahua Puppy

Small, high strung, and loyal.
You do best in the city with a adults - young kids could crush you!
What Breed of Puppy Are You?



You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.

It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.

At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.
What Temperment Are You?


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